I am afraid...

I am afraid to die.
But that has never stopped me from taking another shot
nor stolen my breathe leaving me incapable to smoke.
I'm self destructive.
Like dropping bombs on my hometown.
A bar fight with myself.

I'm afraid to die like it is guarenteed to happen tomorrow.
When in reality the chances are slim.

I'm naive and still young,
However fear prevails.
I'm afraid to die.

I'm afraid to die,
I have not loved fully,
nor transformed progressiely,
I have not suffered enough,
Nor smile or laughed to stasify.
I have not made enough msitakes,
or been forgiven a few times more than I deserve.

I'm afraid to die,
Because I have not lived...